Freedom

May 31, 2013

My heart breaks with disappointment... hopes of a life filled with

love that explodes from moment to moment...my soul calls after You,

yet You answer me not...was the wind I felt that day on my face

..You telling me it was time for me to say goodbye? Twisted are my

emotions...my heart aches with sorrow...broken promises, so much

deception, lies that will hurt me for a lifetime...If deep really does

cry out to deep, why are my tears falling into an abyss of

nothingness? My spirit screams Your name into a star lit sky, my

soul is tormented with loneliness...This sorrow surrounds me in times

when I should be laughing, it suffocates me in moments I should be

breathing...How could You be a lie, live a lie, justify a lie, believe a lie, 
convince others of a lie ??? Deceived I was by Your anointing of enticement, 
captivated by Your depth of understanding... 
A serpent that twists and turns and hisses at any possible sight

of my freedom... How dare You question who He says I am...How dare

You rob me of my promise...Desolation is Your address, insidious is

Your name.. My laughter would echo in unknown places of unfamiliar

territory...I was locked in a glass box with only holes for oxygen...You

played my face, You drank of my soul and growled at my

destiny...Weeping endless nights, seeking an escape, looking for a

way out...I sought after the one I know who knows me better than

anyone else, I ran into the arms of compassion and mercy, I

pursued truth and he set me free.. I desired strength and he built

me up...no more lies, no more deception...now I call the shots.....I no

longer reek like sulfur, I no longer feel Your grasp around my

throat...or Your grip around my wrist...I called and he answered, it’s

because I took of his body that was broken for me...It’s because I

drank the blood in remembrance of He, that I stand before You

finally free...

A Spiritual Resolution for the Saints - Compassion through God's Eyes

Knowing a week ago that the topic of this blog would be on spiritual resolution made me a little nervous….Resolution huh?? Oh my goodness its one of those things I have to attempt to keep New years resolutions have more often been things I have broken then kept…. And of course its not any resolution its a “spiritual” resolution…The definition of resolution in the Webster’s Dictionary is…A decision to do something or behave in a certain manner…Well, that eases my mind a little, it doesn’t say to commit to something or make a covenant about something….I want to believe that resolutions are intended to be kept and the people that make them have intentions to keep them…What is it about The New Year that gets us excited for new beginnings, suddenly we are ready to get things in order, lose weight, adjust our finances, blah, blah, blah….Then as suddenly as the desire comes in for change it begins to fade away…..Sad, sad, sad but true!!!

Anyways…..Enough stalling Michelle……Talking to myself is a bad habit!!.. :)

2010…The Year of the Lord…This has been stirring in my spirit for several months. This is not only a holiday that will bring in the “sense” of new beginnings. I believe this is the beginning, the beginning of a spiritual shift, a spiritual awakening, an out pouring of Gods power it is the year of The Lord!! So where does my spiritual resolution fit in to this up and coming season??

My spiritual resolution is this….To prepare ye the way of the Lord!! I am committed to allow the transforming power of the gospel of Jesus Christ to be expressed through my words, attitude and actions I am willing to pray without ceasing and seek after the kingdom and all of its righteousness….This seems to be a lot and a bit intimidating however, the driving force behind this resolution is every soul that is without the peace of God and the gift of salvation…With 2010 coming and the word of the Lord being ..”Prepare the way for my coming”, doesn’t that mean to get His people ready, “all” people….Luke 19:10 reads, “The son of Man came to seek and save what was lost.”…Are we not called to be like Christ? We are expected to have the same heart of compassion as Christ has for all humanity...To prefer others over ourselves...With that being my resolution I have a challenge for you… Where ever you are grocery store, mall, work, ask the Holy Spirit to give you the compassion of Christ for every person you can see. Ask Him for His heart and His eyes, then wait (patiently) you will begin to feel sorrow, fear and COMPASSION! Do not turn away keep pressing through, look into their souls. Maybe this years resolution will concern the change of others and not ourselves, maybe this year our resolutions will make a difference in the world…This year isn’t about us at all its going to be the year of the Lord! Happy New Year Saints of God!!!