Surrender...

As I stand at the alter...Your spirit is speaking to me...I can hear you, calling out to me....The music in the background becomes faint... I can hear you calling me...I raise one hand...Jesus, I am here.. Father...Father...I am here..Your Spirit envelopes me...I raise my other hand...My eyes are closed... I am drifting...drifting...Away from this place...I can see you. You know I have arrived, I see your face in the distance, your facial features are strong yet, gentle...You have the voice of a father....I love the way you smile at me.....It brings me to my knees...I cry ..Jesus....Jesus...How I desire to be with you....How is it you see and know everything, yet you still love me...

Jesus, I desire to know you...Speak to me during this time...On my knees, tears streaming down my face...I worship you....I exalt you in this place....My God I long to see you now.

In the distance I hear ...Stand up...Daughter...Stand up...A whisper that sounded like a roll of thunder.....Stand up, lift your arms and let it all go, SURRENDER..... Give to me, what burdens you...Give it to me...Let me carry you...I am removing the shackles and confusion that bounds you…I am taking all your shame and failures...I will give you victory...Through me there is freedom and liberty...When I remove your shackles...You will dance!!!!
Saints......I speak to you with an urgency from the very throne room of our Heavenly Father.....Worship Him...In spirit and in truth…Many of us walk through our Christian journey asleep...Its time to awaken...Stand....Wipe the sleep from your eyes...Worshiping God is our way of visiting with Him while we are still here on earth…Transformation can only occur by visiting with the Master in His quarters...God's children rise from your slumber....Raise your hands...Cry out to Him...He will heal you...Sometimes we feel so helpless...Not knowing what we should do...He is calling you...Stand up!! He is waiting for you....The joy of the Lord is your strength.....

My prayer for you.....Listen to the small still voice that calls to you....If you listen closely, you'll hear your name....In your times of worship, seek His face...Give to Him what He is asking....Don't look to the left or to the right...Just look up!!!!! He wants to remove your shackles...your bondage..........So, You can dance....

Thank You!!!

When all the lights are finally off and the hustle of the day has ended....I have come to call on you....Jesus, Are you there? Can you hear me? I have had a long day and I have missed you...Jesus....How I long for this time with you....This morning when I was struggling with myself, you sent my friend to me...I know you know this but, we had lunch today...Thank- you...That was perfect timing...Jesus, I love that you know my inner struggles...I love that you know when I am feeling lonesome....Can you come here right now, I need you to hold me?

Jesus, my son told me he loved me and missed me today!!! Thank -you for my son,... the smile you gave him...It makes me melt when I see it. You gave him the most beautiful singing voice...I am anticipating the day when he returns his heart to you..I know he will sing for you, and preach your word..I remember you told me he is destined for greatness..... You are right, he is........Jesus.....I can feel you...I sure have missed you today......My legs have been hurting me alot lately ...Please touch them and restore them back to health, I have to dance for you...Lord..My daughter...She is amazing, so smart...The personality you chose for her...Perfect!!! I am so thankful for the strength that you gave me during that terrible time of my life..You protected us....Oh Jesus...and I know you know..She is a handful, but she makes me laugh, and she is so beautiful...When I look at her I can see how careful you were when you knit my little dolly together.

Tonight during dance practice...I got lost in the song for a minute because I heard you say that you were with me....I love you, did I tell you that yet?? I was thinking about this time I would have with you tonight..I do long for you..Jesus...Why do you love me so? You have given me freedom..Thank you...You gave me another son...Such joy he brings me.....I love the sound of his voice..Its raspy isnt it??...He loves you so much....Oh Lord and my youngest daughter...What a riot...Her eyes what a pretty color green, you picked that out especially for her..Lord....Am I in your will? I only want to do what you have ordained for my life.....Are you still here?...You haven't left have you? Can you come closer I'm getting cold....My husband ...Wow you hand picked him just for me..I know this because the way he loves me..there's nothing quite like it..He is an original..What I love the most about him ...You gave him patience, you sent him to me just in the knick of time....You called him and I at the same time..What an awesome blessing to receive you as our savior together....Jesus...All the friends you sent me..You have brought so many people into my life and you keep adding to the numbers...Thank you...Jesus.....you gave me a best friend...I never thought I would understand the true meaning of friendship...I can be myself and its ..when I am sad, shes always there...And she laughs at all my jokes...Thank you for her life...You gave her so many gifts.... You used her mightily in nursing me back to health after a terrible experience in my life......Bless her...

Jesus...I love you..And will miss you...Can you sit with me and hold my hand, until I fall asleep? Promise you won't leave???.... Daughter...I have already promised I wouldn't leave you ...Now rest...How I love you....Sleep..My weary child...I am with you always

Are you listening?...

Have you ever sat in a dark room in silence? Not a sound,....Just you, sitting with you? Just listen...Do you hear the spirit of the Lord calling for you? It will start as an emotion, a sensation in the pit of your stomach. The tears begin to well up in your eyes, did you know they are the windows to your soul? His voice, a sweet melody..He says, "That you are fearfully and wonderfully made." That your mistakes have been erased and your heart restored. Your breathing becomes shallow, your afraid that if you move even the slightest the peace of His presence will dissipate. The sweetest sound I have ever heard was the sound of my name from the very lips of my Jesus...I respond softly Jesus, It's me...I am here. I saw His face, eyes filled with compassion and pain, tears, welling up in the eyes of my Savior. Jesus, why are your fists clenched? Are you angry with me? My child I am not angry, I love you my precious one...My fists are clenched in desperation for the souls of those who know me not. Remember the crown of thorns on my head? I am still being mocked as I was then...why, my child? The room filled with the aroma of a fragrance unfamiliar to me but alluring. Again afraid to move even the slightest in fear that my Lord would leave me ...My daughter Reflect me ...as a mirror shows your reflection...They will know me, by the way that you love...

Lord.....Are you leaving??? Not yet, I'm still listening, don't go!!! When will you meet with me again? Michelle, He whispered, "As I have called upon you, you can call on me...In a whisper, in despair , in loneliness...I'll be there....Sit and Wait, just a minute and I'll be there...In my next breath.....I saw his face look up from a bowed stance...He smiled slightly, blew me a kiss....and disappeared...Until the next time my Jesus!!!

My Love Story

How beautiful He is..I believe this is the beginning of something brand new...His look was different, not one I had seen before, I would know I spent most of my time staring at him when he wasn't looking. What is the difference between lust and love??? When I heard him speak my soul shuttered...He said the difference is you...You've changed. I said we have changed!!! He whispered, look into my eyes...I couldn't, I didn't want him to see the shame I was hiding beneath them...This is my love story...I met my husband in a desolate place, a place of darkness and despair. What a mess I had made with my life, given to me as a gift. I wanted love but, didn't know where to look or how to find it. I saw something in him, even in his own darkness there was something...Then...I heard you call my name, in a whisper you said Michelle come to me....., trust me with your life.... I have always been right here daughter...I ran as fast as I could with arms open wide, you hugged me and caressed my cheek and I knew, that something in him was you...........