Freedom

May 31, 2013

My heart breaks with disappointment... hopes of a life filled with

love that explodes from moment to moment...my soul calls after You,

yet You answer me not...was the wind I felt that day on my face

..You telling me it was time for me to say goodbye? Twisted are my

emotions...my heart aches with sorrow...broken promises, so much

deception, lies that will hurt me for a lifetime...If deep really does

cry out to deep, why are my tears falling into an abyss of

nothingness? My spirit screams Your name into a star lit sky, my

soul is tormented with loneliness...This sorrow surrounds me in times

when I should be laughing, it suffocates me in moments I should be

breathing...How could You be a lie, live a lie, justify a lie, believe a lie, 
convince others of a lie ??? Deceived I was by Your anointing of enticement, 
captivated by Your depth of understanding... 
A serpent that twists and turns and hisses at any possible sight

of my freedom... How dare You question who He says I am...How dare

You rob me of my promise...Desolation is Your address, insidious is

Your name.. My laughter would echo in unknown places of unfamiliar

territory...I was locked in a glass box with only holes for oxygen...You

played my face, You drank of my soul and growled at my

destiny...Weeping endless nights, seeking an escape, looking for a

way out...I sought after the one I know who knows me better than

anyone else, I ran into the arms of compassion and mercy, I

pursued truth and he set me free.. I desired strength and he built

me up...no more lies, no more deception...now I call the shots.....I no

longer reek like sulfur, I no longer feel Your grasp around my

throat...or Your grip around my wrist...I called and he answered, it’s

because I took of his body that was broken for me...It’s because I

drank the blood in remembrance of He, that I stand before You

finally free...